On Monday night, I was given the opportunity to go to coffee with a very close friend of mine. She doesn't know it yet, but our conversation literally brought me to my knees. Our time together made me realize the desperation I feel in my heart. After coffee, I returned to my room, and started sobbing. I couldn't stop. I couldn't hold it in any longer.
After so long of building up a wall between myself and God, the desperation for Him had finally come back. After so long of putting my hopes and dreams ahead of Him, my desperation for Him alone had finally come back. After so long of shoving God into second place, my desperation for Him had finally come back. Do you know what it means to be desperate? To want so desperately? To hunger so deeply for God?
We make excuses about the times that we are far from Christ. We just pass them off as "dry seasons." Well, I also passed off my distance from God as a "dry season." But I didn't prepare for God to rescue me from my dry season. I wasn't willing to become desperate enough to allow Him to rescue me. You see, desperation drives us to action. Desperation drives us to a spirit of humility and willingness...a willingness to seek God honestly and wholeheartedly. Without desperation, we lack a deep relationship with Christ.
Desperation means falling to our knees in want of Christ alone. Desperation is knowing God is the only one who can fill the void. Desperation makes us realize how lost we are without God. Desperation drives us into action, into seeking God with a burning passion. Desperation drives us to spread God's Word among unbelievers. Without desperation, where is the fire for Christ?
Please, don't make my mistake. Don't lose your desperation for Christ. Don't lose your burning fire to be so extremely close to Him and all He is. Cling to Him desperately. Be desperate...
Breathe by Michael W. Smith
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